Rough week

This past week has been a rough one.  I am always trying to balance a "life", a farm, a career, a marriage, a dog rescue and two elderly parents.  I am not sure if people realize there is more to me then just running a rescue.  As my sister said yesterday my greatest strength is also my greatest weakness. I am a leader and I get things done.  The problem is I have my own life, my own issues, my own things I need to take care of and I simply can not take care of everyone all the time.  This week was a clear indication of that.

Monday I received word one of the rescue volunteers losing their home and 3 foster dogs to a fire and I sprung into action.  I spent MANY hours not being at home getting done so that they could have a roof over their heads that would allow their 5 dogs.

Due to dog aggression issues one of our rescue's dogs has to be euthanized.  He was a danger to himself and others.

Due to the fact I worked WAY TOO MANY hours the week before and I wasn't home this past week, an accident happened and a puppy is now in the vet hospital with a grim outlook on life and has been there since Friday late afternoon.

AND the stress of having to do court stuff for my harassment issue.

I tried to re home one of my dogs but he is SO attached to me, it doesn't look like that is going to be happening.  I have only had him since January but I have put a lot of work into him and he is very well trained FOR ME and he is VERY attached to me. I am not sure I will be able to place him.  He kind of reminds me of Chi Chi, a JRT who was so abused he only really trusts my sister in law and me.  My brother after almost 2 years can finally pet him SOMETIMES!

People screw with these dogs heads SO BADLY they they never come back.

I tried to send my one JRT to a foster home. I just needed a break from her... long story but goes back to my harassment issue.  She was so bad they had to bring her back.  I swear she is part beagle.  She got into the trash and ate God only knows what and spread it ALL over their house.  She didn't bark or destroy anything but she was also afraid of the cats.  Ridiculous.  She is back at my house now and technically is my mom's dog... hopefully my mom will start working with her more and not letting her get away with murder and we can get this 9 year old pain in my ass dog under control.  She doesn't do bad things when I am around.... just when my mom is around b/c she lets her get away with it.  So annoying.

I was hoping this year 2012 would be a great year.  It has been a so so year.  Not as stressful as last year but not that great either.  A lot of heart break this year... the death of my horse, the death to a puppy, Sally having to be put down due to abuse and neglect, issues with my parents irresponsibility and honestly this new job I took.... I really miss everyone I worked with at my old company.  The company wasn't great but the people were some of my closes friends and here the company is great but the people aren't so nice.  I guess you can't have everything. LOL!

Lucky for me I have a wonderful husband and I feel like our marriage only gets stronger every day.  I am glad 2011 is behind me and I will be glad when 2012 is too.  2013 will hold new challenges for me as I am expecting my first child in early March. (I really think it will be more February... seriously I will run out of room). I will continue to do rescue and I will continue to take care of my parents even though it is a HUGE burden which I have found there are others out there that have also taken care of elderly parents but none that were able to continue doing it for more then a few years....